THE OPPOSITE.

Strong..
Cool..
Smart.. 
Brave..
Things that been always said..
You never knew that there is a second face..
A face that held the meaning of
Weakness..
Sorrow..
Stupidity..
and Cowrdness in its vain..
They say pretending is hard
But they never knew that it's my game..
I wish I could let it all out..
But will it ever be  revealed?!...
No it will just stay, and return back from where it came..
To admit is my biggest fear..
and to confess will it ever be?!..

YOUR VOICE..MY NAME.

High notes.. 

Low notes..

Cracked voice..

Helpless words..

A beautiful laughter.. 

A charming sound..

The way you said my name was so paralyzing..

I never was awkward in phone calls..

But your voice always trembles me..

I loose my thoughts with every word you say..

Oh how I missed the way you lied saying "I love you"..

That burning desire of wanting to hear it from you again never faded... 

And I don't think that it ever will...

I'll sit here waiting... 

Hoping for you to call my name once again..

TIME TO MOVE ON.

What are these thoughts you gave me..

Like a nightmare hunting me..

In the dark corner of that room..

I sat for a while thinking of a way to break through..

Until that little ray of hope stroke my head..

That lead me to a  small door..

Am I alice in the wonder world?!

What should I drink to shrink?!

Or shall I look for an allay to help..

But wait..no I don't need help..

There's a key that will lead me to the right way!..

A key that I was blinded from for the weakness of me..

For not accepting the fact that you won't stay with me..

Now that I know.. let's open the great passage to the perfect road

UNKNOWN FEELINGS.

A feeling I never felt before..

A feeling that makes me want to fly..

A feeling that makes my heart beats so fast..

It gave me that gentle sweet smile..

It gave me a new vision to that sky..

What is it?! Am I high?!

Am I on drugs?! I wonder if I'm fine!

what is this feeling that aches my heart..

What is this feeling that seeks for your eyes..

Please tell me is what I'm feeling is normal?!

Just tell me if I'm fine!

Why is your voice calms my dancing heart?!

Why is your touch gives the shiver in my hand?!

why is your eyes makes me loosing my sight?!

Why is it you?! Just tell me why!

I became blind.. I see nothing but your beautiful face..

Is this a new stage?!

What is this change?!

I'm lost in an unknown feeling that I won't understand.. 

DISTANCE LESSON.

Distance...such a funny thing!

They teach us to be tough yet they are our weakness.. 

I never knew that they can make me suffer in a sweet way..

A way that'll remind me how careless I was for myself..

And how thoughtful I was for you..

A way that opened my eyes to the fact that I was never loved by you .. and never will..

A way that shaded thousand tears in for the wrong one.. and ignored the right one

Even though it was painful to open my eyes to see that distance you've moved.. 

I learned the delighted feeling of loving myself..

Thank you for walking away..

Thank you for returning me to myself..

Thank you for teaching me the reality.. 

DON'T CRY.

Like a diamond falling from a high place..

Shaded with words of sorrowness..

Covered with scratche..

With so many tries to break it...

They failed...

She kept wondering about the reason..

But no answer was found..

She know that she's hated..

But she never let her smile to fade..

She feels so lonely..

But she never wanted to bother them..

She always wanted to be close..

But they never let her in..

She thought that they are her "Best Friends"...

But every human makes mistakes..

She shouted "WHY!"..

Her echo answered her "BECAUSE..."..

Then it faded without completing.. 

In a world that is filled with clouds..

She wanted to survive..

Her love for the skies..

Gave her wings that made her fly..

She knew that this world only existed in her eyes..

But she never stopped to try! ...

And when she thought she can't reach her dream..

She wanted to cry.. 

But that light from behind..

Gave her the hope and told her "not to cry"....

For the only person who always stood next to me when I was falling.....

Thank you ! 

HEART ATTACK.

 

I had that pink dream .
Where you and I surfed in the sea of love..
Not knowing our destination..
We just kept going with the flow..
Following the one stone that glows..
In the end of that dark ally ..
That is labeled with "reality"..
I thought you're the only one who'll stay by my side..
I flew .. I smiled .. I ran ..
In the wide field of love ..
Thinking that you're my one and only ! .
I learned to step on the small ashes of the broken stones for you..
I stayed strong knowing that you'll be waiting for me in that edge I see..
The edge of the love field ..
I reached you .. I held you .. I kissed your lovely eyes..
No .. That wasn't enough for you ?! ...
All you did is pushing me from the edge ...
Throwing me in the dark hole of loneliness ..
Screaming to me "I DON'T DESERVE YOU !!"
Yes .. My love was too much for you to handle..
I regret believing in you ..
I vowed that I won't love anymore ...
Your love was my first and last heart attack ...